Going to school wasn't something I wanted to do most years, it was always forced, get it out of the way activity. Of course, there were sometimes times in which I wish I was at school back then and even now but it was to be with friends not to work, never was, never will be, and now that quarantine is alive and active I don't believe I should go back to school. Especially this early in the year seeing as it is a highly populated, unsanitary place, without most students caring about the health of others. I never had a strong passion for learning in school, or listening, or doing the work on time, assignments after class, or a due date that is too early. Schoolwork just isn't for me, I don't like the amount certain teachers give when we have lives that we want to interact with after school, I don't want every day to be dedicated to finishing work that I'm not able to finish in the actual class. I‘ve always wanted to go to socialize and meet new people, and that's why I never had a problem moving schools. South Gwinnett so far has been very stressful not mentioning a select few classes who know how to assign work that can be finished in an in-person period. This is also the 6th school I've attended so far and I do believe that can give me at least slight leverage to talk about a topic like such. The two elementary schools I attended went smoothly for all five years other than minor complications which include suspension... twice and almost a third time, which we don't speak in detail. I don't see myself as the bad kid in the class and don't mean to do anything to get in trouble but when something happens of course you as a parent would believe the school over the son who lies...a lot.
I remember the one chance opportunity I had which gave me the ability to skip the next grade in which I was excited and would gladly take a part in. I mean I was ready, seeing as it was recommended by the school it would make sense that I was right? At least that was my logic at the time. That school year I didn't have to do anything to pass, it was a simple task to go to school, do the work, and leave while not having to worry about passing the next day. But it was my guardian's decision and I had no control over it which led to me being aggravated by the missed chance for that following month. I saw it as such a missed opportunity based upon the facts that I would have a free 18th school year, a free year for me to run her errands and anything else needed while she works from home, free year for me to save up my own money, and all these benefits that could have come out of it, but that simply wasn't her mindset. I remember the next school year in which I breezed through bringing up the fact that I never needed the class multiple times in frustration, and after every test, I passed. To this day I never understood why this was the verdict maybe it was because I was already one of the youngest in the grade, maybe it was because they didn’t want me to leave home early, or maybe...just maybe they weren’t thinking about the benefits that could come out of it.
The closest middle school in the area at the time was Richards(RMS) the Titans!!, this was my first year of middle school and I was very nervous, At this school as I stayed a semester taking classes I wasn't prepared for ending in very low 80’s throughout the year. I then transferred to a school in Dekalb, Miller grove(MGMS)the wolverines, this school is where the classes there were nothing to worry about, an very easy semester all A’s I believe and after I finished the semester at that school, I came back to Gwinnett and shared my 7th and 8th-grade experience while going to Snellville middle the comets. I believe those two years were the best of my school years so far, seeing how exciting they were.
Family complications led to the separation of where I lived. I never thought I would live in Gwinnett, I've always thought that I would've stayed in Dekalb county, where we were mostly raised, But the world changes and so do the people in it. School always seemed like an escape from reality where I didn't have to worry about whom I was going to stay with or what bad things could happen that year. I've always found a way to make friends in school and I think I'm just that much of a social person. Along the road, there will always be certain people who don't like you for you. That's ok because you should be yourself and worrying about one person isn't something you should do, simply because they have their own lives and so do you, and worrying about them does nothing for your well being.
A moment I will always vividly remember is the time I was suspended in elementary school while living with my mom. I've always seen my mother as both of my parents for the time we were living with her and I still do, she has always been that tough mom that we needed as the children we once were. She gives us life lessons, meaningful conversations that aren't one-sided, and throughout any disagreement we are treated as equals. She just overall can be seen as a good parent. We know that this luxury is taken away when we get into the mischievous ways we already knew that we couldn't live the same life that the following week or so. Never had a direct smell towards my mom, she would always wear different perfumes to see which one she liked the best, “vanilla ______”. I draw a blank every time I try to remember but I know that vanilla- v- v- v- I can never remember the word but I knew that this fragrance was her favorite because of how often she wore it. Working at home we always had her to talk to about school, homework/projects, and anything else we needed. We bred dogs before and after moving between houses, many dogs many buyers, and always lots of fun raising them. We never had any problems with noise complaints, disturbances because we stayed to ourselves and we were taught to let (CERTAIN) things go. At this elementary school and any school in general I was not such a good student looking at the behavior aspect but I had more of academic success throughout the years. On this particular day, I was called to the principal’s office and began a conversation on the phone with my mother.“Hello”
My mother says on the phone
“Yes... I'm here”
I say while I let a heartfelt sigh out into the phone.
”What did you do this time-----”
I look at the phone angrily
“I DIDNT-” She cuts me off mid-sentence”
“Who in the world are you yelling at”
stopping between words, I can hear her getting angrier throughout her sentences.
“Well if you would just let me explain-”
I get cut off again
“I already know what happened,” she says as if it was obvious
“Well not this time, because I just walked in and out”
I say shaking thinking of what will happen for saying shes wrong
“Well I still don't believe you, the school says otherwise and I'd rather listen to them this time so what truly happened”
“Nothing, I swear”
I know what was going to happen when I got home knew that wasn't enough but that was all I could say then and there.
”i-i-i- it wasn't me”
I knew what I wanted to say but I was too nervous and it didn't come out right
“ then why did they say it was you”
“Becau-”
” I don't wanna hear it I'm on my way”
she objects fully comments
”it's raining too so get to the car fast”
20 minutes pass and the car pulls up, the window rolls down and a face of disappointment greets me while I run to the car door.
”you know you’re suspended right?”
I looked confused because I wasn't informed of this
”huh?”
I questionably respond
”if you can huh you can hear so stop acting surprised”
we sit in silence on the way home, I get my phone taken then my tv, then my system, and all I'm left to do other than reading books until I go back to school, this is where I found my favorite author rick Riordan. I’ve always liked his books and the way he created the storyline. Not once have I found an author better than him to keep me interested in the book and that’s what I read, alone, quiet, and in the rain waiting for the next day to come.
I‘ve always appreciated the way I was shaped throughout the years due to school, with the environments being greatly different, dramatically seen throughout the three attended middle schools. I have learned to discipline myself while doing certain work through the past years while picking up certain slang and habits from all schools and I believe that I as a person can be seen as a nice, caring, and most definitely balanced human being.
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